Disclaimer: I’m not writing this as a means of letting out any personal feelings I have on my own life. Rather, I have just reached the boiling point of frustration over others. No hate, I swear on all the pizza in the world.
Hello good day to you, reader of this tough love rant…
Lately, I have been exposed to an extra large number of people who are going through some sort of heartbreak. They range from the likes of being cheated on, being abused (physically/mentally/emotionally), no reciprocation of feelings, no admirers/special someone, and insert all other love problems here that basically amounts to a single word: DEPRIVATION.
I am not a robot. I know everyone wants to have someone and everyone’s got their own reason they need these people for: Companionship, Relationship, Source of Kilig, Mental/Emotional/Physical/Sexual Fluffers (oo na don’t deny it na haha), Someone to talk to/be with, etc. etc.
Sometimes, we find someone who we think can supply that for us. But then a few days/weeks/months/years (or hours lang kung makati kang tao) down the road, you find everything turning into a shit hole that makes you desperately trail back in time and figure out where/when/how/why it all went wrong.
If you are a smart cookie who realizes “Yes I love myself too much to put myself through this shit. He/She/It does not deserve me and I’m going to walk away with my pride and dignity intact and re-build my fabulous life from the ashes of my broken heart. *Moonwalk away from the situation while Destiny’s Child’s ‘I’m A Survivor’ plays in the background*” — then CONGRATULATIONS. May you have all your hopes and dreams come true in life! Four for you, Glen Coco, you go Glen Coco!!
But if you are part of the other half who can’t seem to let go despite having the odds gravely NOT in your favor then please enlighten the rest of the class on why it’s a smart decision to make a career out of being an emotional punching bag? Because I really DON’T see it. NO ONE ELSE can see it. If everyone in your life, especially those close to your heart tell you: “it’s no longer worth it” , “you deserve better”, “why are you doing this to yourself??”, “that person is an idiot. you can totes find someone who is right for you.” THEN WHY ARE YOU NOT LISTENING? Do you not have ears? Do you not have self-respect? Do you not have a “sobra na to, tama na, ang tanga ko na” vein that connects from your heart to your brain and other parts of yourself?
Yeah yeah, you’ve invested time, money, effort, and whatever reason you tell yourself to help you sleep at night. But darling… I guarantee you. No person who hurts you (especially those who do it deliberately) is ever worth all your worth. You may have had good times and a great connection that’s difficult to establish in this world filled with random strangers but fact of the matter is… It’s all over now. You can never say you can simply fix things, and that love and rainbows and butterflies will aid your relationship problems and get you back to the time when it was all good. Because if you are truly truly honest with yourself, then you know it’s NEVER happening.
I believe in fighting for a love that you believe in. But when you’re fighting alone, and worse, when you’re fighting with a situation that really can’t be mended or forgotten, then you are pretty much equivalent to all the fruits in Fruit Ninja. Because you are always going to make an effort but all you get in return are cuts and slashes that will just leave more broken pieces of you on the floor. And guess who’s NOT going to pick them up for you? The person with the samurai sword who can’t see how special you are.
Before you say ang kapal ng mukha ko for saying these things cause “I don’t know what it feels like” or “I don’t know how to fight for love” (I cringed when I typed that. shit. so cheesy haha) then let me say “Go fvck off. You know nothing about my story or my life”. I have been there. And it’s for this reason that I want to hug everyone who’s hurting and tell them that “everything is going to be okay. not now but eventually”. And then maybe supply them with their dream boys/girls, a buttload of cash and a trip around the world on a private plane where you can drink, party, and live the Kanye life. But no matter what anyone can say or give you to make it better, the only one who can really get you out of the deep hole you’re digging for yourself is YOU.
So I BEG YOU. Before I hear yet another sad tale of a broken heart and finally implode from all the frustration, please realize that being alone is much better than wasting your time with a person who has already done too much damage to your relationship and yourself. Fight for the person you love, but be fair to yourself when you know that you can’t help the situation anymore. He/She/It is no longer truly yours and it’s best to walk away. The sooner you do it, the sooner you can get to the person who is destined to make you happy.
I wish for everyone to be able to find someone who you can be with that gives you all the perks and benefits (mmmm benefits haha joke. ok half joke.) of having someone that wants you in the same way… To find someone who thinks the sun shines out of your ass no matter what quirkiness/weirdness/kinkiness of yourself (lol 50 shades) that you expose to him/her… And best of all… To find someone you can be and build yourself with– who would help you on your personal growth to be the best YOU that you can be.
In the meanwhile, I will continue to listen and help as much as I can, and supply food, annoying high bubbly energy, and million hugs and laughter for the casualties of love. Even if deep inside, I am already murdering the person who hurt you in a variety of torturous ways…. :)
End of rant. Bye. Have a good day. :) Be good. :)
What was your most ridiculously heartbreaking heartache? How did you manage to get over it? So many ways to break our hearts, and yet we sometimes forget that it’ll eventually piece itself back together again. Hang tight, all ye who are heartbroken. :)